Mischa Barton broke our hearts today, when she admitted that if given the choice again, she would "probably not" have starred in the hit show, The O.C.

What?! The actress said she was skeptical from the start when it came to starring in the hit teen drama.

"It's something I came so close to not doing. I had a really great thing with film. People say be grateful for what you have but it certainly not the kind of thing I was expecting it to be. I've kind of seen it all”

Mischa didn’t have an easy time after leaving the show though. She was arrested for DUI in 2007 and in 2009, the actress was admitted into a psych ward after she threatened to take her own life.

But Mischa says she doesn’t care about how she’s perceived in the media, but admitted that the pressure fame placed on her, was difficult.

"It's really tough when you are young in this business. People blow a lot of hot air at you. That's the main thing. Keep your head on your shoulders—even when you think your head is on your shoulders, sometimes it isn't. It's just one of those things when you are growing under a microscope and changing and that evolution is human. That humanity aspect means flaws—which people don't want to see."

We guess that makes sense, but you will always be Marissa Cooper to us Mischa!