Jennifer Garner has opened up about her marriage break-up for the first time in an exclusive interview for the March issue of Vanity Fair.
While she admitted that things fell apart, she has no regrets about marrying the Hollywood hunk.
"It was a real marriage. It wasn’t for the cameras. And it was a huge priority for me to stay in it.
"And that did not work," said the 43-year-old.
"I didn’t marry the big fat movie star; I married him. And I would go back and remake that decision.
"He’s the love of my life. What am I going to do about that? He’s the most brilliant person in any room, the charismatic, the most generous.
"He’s just a complicated guy. I always say 'when his sun shines on you, you feel it.' But when it’s shining elsewhere, it’s cold. He can cast quite a shadow."
The obviously heartbroken mother-of-three also spoke about the incident with the nanny.
Last summer, Ben was accused of sleeping with the nanny to the pair’s three children which culminated in the split but according to Jen, they had been separated for months before that.
"She had nothing to do with our decision to divorce. She was not a part of the equation.
"Bad judgement? Yes.
"It’s not great for your kids for [a nanny] to disappear from their lives. I have had to have conversations about the meaning of 'scandal.' "
As for whether Jen believes the rumours about Ben’s affair with the nanny, she remained diplomatic.
"He’s still the only person who really knows the truth about things. And I’m still the only person that knows some of his truths."
Despite the turmoil, Jen knows exactly what she will be up to next.
"I cannot be driven by the optics of this. I cannot let anger or hurt be my engine.
"I need to move with the big picture always on my mind and the kids first and foremost."